Divine Calling
Many people search for meaning in
their life. I tried to find this meaning
in different things like the author of the Book of Ecclesiastes. I always felt
there was something missing in my life. When I was eighteen I became a
Christian and it gave me meaning and a purpose for living. Not long after, I
believed God was calling me to be a preacher or a missionary. To fulfill this
calling, I needed a college education. The college degree would a stepping
stone to ministerial education in Seminary.
Dante
in the third part of the Divine Comedy encounters Picarda in the first circle
of heaven. He asks her why she is in the first circle of heaven. Picarda told
him that she had made a commitment to join the order of Clare of Assisi. She
stated, “Following her (Clare of Assisi), when young I fled the world and
donned the habit of sisterhood” (Canto 3. 103-104). However, she was taken from
the monastery and forced to marry. Beatrice further clarifies Picarda’s choice,
saying, “In such a case I’d have you understand that will and force commingle
and prevent excuse for the offense. Unto the evil, absolute will refuses its
consent, but when contingent will yields to the fear of falling to worse harm
should it withstand, will does consent” (Canto 4.106-112). Beatrice seems to be
saying that Picarda sinned by not staying faithful to her calling. In addition,
it implies that we have a choice in the type of life we live.
Understanding
God’s own call in my own life has been difficult. God reveals His calling to
different people in different ways. Charles Martel in Dante’s Paradise says, “The
Good that turns and soothes with fullest peace all the realm you’re climbing,
lends these grand bodies the power to form what It foresees, Providing for the
natures of mankind, with all that’s fit to make them whole-- for that is also
in that perfect Mind. So all the powers this heavenly bow may shoot must fall
well aimed to strike the end foreseen, just as a thing directed to its goal”
(Canto 8. 98-105). On the one hand, it seems we have the free choice to respond
freely to God’s calling; on the other hand, God is guiding us through
providence to the mission He has for our life. One of the ways He does this is
by giving us gifts that will enable us to do what He wants us to do. Second, He
places a desire in us to do this very thing. Third, he provides opportunities
to carry out His mission.
As
previously mentioned I went to college with the purpose of getting a piece of
paper that would meet the educational requirement for seminary. Along the way
something occurred that changed my
focus. I started off college seeing it as a means to another end. About halfway
through I discovered that education was both a means and an end. I learned that
education was an end in itself. I discovered in myself a passion and love of
learning. By the time of my last semester in college I sensed a call to pursue
the intellectual life. However, since I had planned on going to seminary I went
to seminary. I soon discovered that seminary was not the place for me. So I
returned to my college where I earned an undergraduate degree in history to
pursue a graduate degree in history. I felt right at home.
How
does one actually find his calling? There are different ways that God reveals
His will to His servants. In Canto seventeen of Dante’s Paradise, Dante’s
ancestor discloses Dante’s future calling. He reveals to Dante that he will be
exiled from his homeland. However, these adverse circumstances will enable to
pursue God’s calling for his life. Cacciaguida tells Dante, “For if your words
are sharp at the first taste, they’ll leave behind a living nourishment when
they have been digested at the last. This shout of yours will batter like a
gale that pounds the tallest peaks with greatest force--and of its worth that’s
no small argument” (Canto 17. 131-135). Dante’s calling is to be a writer, a
poet, someone who works with words.
The
discerning of my calling has been a slow, gradual process. In God’s providence
I have been led to the vocation of librarianship and working as a college
librarian. I worked in the library while I was a student in college. After
finishing my graduate degree in history I was offered a job as a school
librarian. The school librarian wanted to return to the classroom. I accepted
the librarian position and the school paid for me to get a graduate degree in
Library Science. My vocation as a librarian has enabled me to pursue my true
calling, the life of learning.
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